Archive for the ‘trust’ Category

field of gold

Friday, November 4th, 2011

 

This has always been your journey this time round. You have felt the pull towards the centre of your being, and you wonder how much longer.  

 

Life is random. We never control completely what is happening and what will happen to us. Some of us want control, insurance, risk minimalisation, others, like yourself seek the opposite, you want to know yourself without regard, without judgement, without recognition you venture into the breach, you want to test the trust that you cling to so desperately. And when you do, when you have done, you have been rewarded, you have been reassured, and yet this reassurance is always given, provided in such a way that is only meant for you. Others need to seek their own reassurance, you can not share yours – it is as the big man said – each must find their own way. Each must find the trust, and test it, and in doing so become stronger in the faith in what is, and what can be.

 

I can not take you where you want to go. I can tell you how to get there, but I can not take you. You must take that journey yourself.

 

With minutes left to live I wonder about the days before. I wonder about the tree that I saw moving with the wind last year, the one that stood alone in a field of gold. I wonder about the ease of learning a new language, a language that others will understand. I wonder about the accommodation provided in heaven, and the way in which we all try to look like others with whom we feel an affinity.

 

x bhavatu sabbe mangalum x

 

think, speak, act positive

Wednesday, November 2nd, 2011

  

 

 

 

have a little faith baby

have a little faith

say something righteous and hopeful

 

x bhavatu sabbe mangalum x

 

here I am again…

Monday, February 7th, 2011

 

 

Its all ok, everything is good even when it feels like we’ve come full circle and are back exactly where we were 4, 5 or however many years ago. We all go round in circles – life is not  a linear process, we don’t just start out being born, learn our lessons from every single experience and progressively follow this straight path to death. We go round in circles, revisiting moments in our lives that we have a need to revisit.  Sometimes it takes us more that one go at a certain life experience to fully learn and grow from it. So, thankfully we come round again.

 

Some of us don’t even recognise these cycles at all, most of us only see it every now and again. However if we don’t recognise this pattern and if we don’t choose to pay attention and take action then we just keep going round and round, ultimately wondering why we don’t seem to be ‘getting anywhere’ in our lives.

 

Yet we all know when we’ve come round again - we know it deep inside. We sense a familiar feeling inside and there are familiar signs outside. We know that we’ve had these feelings before and the external signs and symbols remind us of a similar time in our lives not so long ago. Not so long ago that we have no recollection; we know where we are. We know we are here again. The question is do we now pay heed to this knowing, or do we ignore it, dismiss it, resist it?

 

There are of course a multitude of reasons why we may choose to ignore, dismiss or resist what we know.  And quite often this is exactly what we do. We do this however at our peril. There is no escaping these cycles of life. We are back here again for a reason, and if we choose to ignore, dimiss or resist how we feel and what we recognise around us, then we are simply delaying the inevitable. And what today is just an uncomfortable sense of self doubt will become if we delay long enough a life-threatening situation.

 

There is one predominant reason we have come back round again. There is one main reason we find ourselves in this situation again. That is to give ourselves an opportunity. We are here again so that we can choose to do things differently We can choose to be different.  And ain’t that the most amazing thing? Ain’t that the most fantastic opportunity?

 

Usually this most wonderful opportunity is also a most demanding challenge. We are here again because there is another way to respond to this set of circumstances; there is another way to feel and act in this moment. There is another way to be in this moment. Often this other path  is one we do not feel that comfortable taking, probably why we didn’t take it last time around (ha). Yet the bigger our fear the greater the opportunity for us to change our lives. It is our fear that holds us back, by being here again we are presented with the challenge and the opportunity to face that fear and set ourselves free.

 

So my friends whenever you find yourselves in that place that seems so familiar, pay attention. Be in it, feel it, remember it. Remember how you felt, who you were the last time you were here. Who are you now? What do you want to be different, and what do you have to do make it so?

 

Take responsibility for being here, again. Take responsibility for being here before. Know that you are here because you chose/choose to be here. You are here for a reason and trust that you know exactly what that reason is. Try to let go of your frustration, your disappointment, your anger. Try to just simply and gently be in this place and get to know the landscape a little better.

 

Be grateful. Thank the lord, or the universe, or fate, or whatever it is you believe in for allowing you, and assisting you, in being here again. Appreciate the wonderful opportunity you have been given; the challenge you have created for yourself to liberate yourself in this moment.

 

Kia kaha, kia toa, kia manawanui. Be strong, be brave, be steadfast my friends. Know that I love you all. Know that this moment, like all moments will not last. Know that you have within you the courage and the strength to change who you are and what your future is.

 

x bhavatu sabbe mangalum x

 

 


within your troubles

Saturday, January 1st, 2011

 

New Year Resolutions #1:

 

  1. open up my eyes
  2. look up
  3. know everything is going to be all right
  4. reach out
  5. know God shines his light on me
  6. LIVE THE LIFE I LOVE
  7. use that higher power

 

 

x bhavatu sabbe mangalum x

days like this

Wednesday, December 22nd, 2010

 

Some days are easier than others. Like today, today I don’t have cancer, I haven’t driven my car into a tree and I haven’t been shot in the head by a band of teenage girls. Today is an easy day.

 

Then there’s those other days, not just easy days but bloody great inspirational days, days when …

 

 

….. all the parts of the puzzle look like they fit . These days, those days, thank god there’s days like this.

 

On days like this life seems to have a capital ‘L’. In fact all of it is in CAPITALS. LIFE IS GREAT. We live for days like this. Wait, slow down …. read that again …. we LIVE for days like this – and on days like this we REALISE that. We know why we are alive, we know why we are here, we know the purpose and the meaning of life – or …

 

                                                          ….we don’t know it and we just don’t care, because simply being here is more than enough. Days like this. Ah yes, glorious, god given, beautiful and bedazzling, uplifting and enlivening days like this. I love em. In fact I don’t even need a whole day, just a moment – a moment like this. One of those is enough to spark me up for a while.

 

Like yesterday I found myself standing in the kitchen at the residential home for the mentally unwell where I just happened to be working yakking away to this Jamaican Brit about New Zealand and Brixton, sons and daughters, girlfriends and the importance of having a smile on your face. A moment like this, so full of energy, full of goodwill, full of connection, communion and synergy is for me what it’s all about.

 

Just thought I’d share that with you … and may yours days always be days like this. May you feel the wonder, joy and synergy of life in every moment. May you feel the swell of gratitude and the beat of belonging in your heart. May you always share in my dharma.

 

 x bhavatu sabbe mangalum x